peace.love.respect

Assalamualaikum...

kind of long time i did not update my blog..actually there are so many things happen in my life..something good..something bad..i had smile, laugh and cry along the way to go through..it shows life has been so complicated as we grow older..how i  wish sometime i could turn back time and be like when we are just small little kid with free minded and less thing to consider..i guess most sincere happy faces expressed when i was a kid rather than now..sometimes we need to be happy even though we are not..its not that being hypocrite or what..to me, its just not nice to be moody all the time with problems that we have and express it out so everyone will know that you are not in good condition..let say you are mad with someone, and then you show up your madness to everyone..its bad right..because not everyone deserve it..you should only act in that way to those you supposed to..sometimes i cannot accept why we need to get mad easily and being moody with serious faces..don't you know that, it will lead to older easily..what kind of issue i am talking now..oho..i am in the beginning of my final exam so i guess it is kind of exam syndrome whereby i am just talking what is crossing my mind at this moment..one more thing i wanted to share here, i just cannot accept why people keep on hiding something when you felt like being hurt by your friends..i don't know either i already did anything wrong to her..i did ask for forgiveness and ask what is really going on now..all of sudden, she act in this way..i am an open person and rational as well..and as a girl aged 22 years old, i act maturely and not being childish with annoying attitude.. so, whatever unsatisfied thing or feeling that you have towards me, just come and confess it to me..we can talk and discuss nicely..and not running away..i am an human being with feelings inside..and not only you have feelings..i am just an ordinary girl..i am trying my best to treat everyone nicely..but once,.. people should know about me, i really care and consider whatever people said to me..once you said you are being so busy and really don't have time to meet me up..i don't mind..cause i know..you got responsible and commitment..i consider it as normal condition and part of life..because someday somehow i might be in the same condition as yours..unless you are the one asked to meet me..that is fine with me..and please and please..do inform if any changes happen in the last minute...i am kind of disappointing when you don't even message me to let me know that you got something to do and not available to see me..its OK if you informed me earlier and not simply assumed that i will know it by myself..sad part of it i already at the bus stop waiting for bus..i sent message to you and asked you where we can meet, and then you simply said it was canceled and you cannot make it up..hohoho..try to put yourself in me, how do you feel then???you are ready to go out and kind of late being informed it was canceled..[nice feeling right??]ok ok ok...enough talking about this..i guess its not nice to bring this more and more..if any, i am sory babe..i might not good friend to you but i am just trying my best to be as good as i could..i admit that, people change..so do i..people come and go easily..i guess i can be like that as well..hurmm..enough talking crappy here..need to stop now..lunch time..so,,have a great day everyone...

p/s: all the very best for myself for sem7th final!!!!!

Assalamualaikum..

today i have class with dr zuridah..she is a nice lecturer. she treat us like her own children. even though she always babbling to us, but she doesn't mean it. she is kind-hearted person. she do all that just wanted us to become someone better. she just wanted to see us become successful someday in the future. she always saying something that will open up my mind and do think further. somehow before, i am kind of very lazy to think more and more on serious issue. since i become one of her student, i started to think big as she asked us to do so. she always said don't be lazy. please think!! it is just either you want it or not. it is up to you. at first it might quite hard to change. slowly i love to be in her class. even sometimes i feel so nervous every time in her class. i am just trying my best answering whenever she asked me question. some can be answered, some cannot. all i do is just trying. altleast i try than never. and today, best part in her class is when she is making joke with me. i feel like dreaming. it is just unexpected. it is so lovely when i see her smile and laugh. and now, i am going to love her, seriously. she is a nice lecturer i have. she is trying her best to help her students to be success. she never complaint even we are bit lazy sometimes in thinking. no matter how others think bout her, what i nkow is i love her as my lecturer. i hope i can be better from day to day. hopefully i manage to do all this. insyaallah.  

p/s: i am so scared of her before and now i started to love her because i know she just wanted us to be succeed.

i wake up this morning with mixed feelings. i supposed to go to class at 9.30 a.m. however, my lecturer have to attend one important meeting and need to cancel class. some might happy with this but not me. i do hope class will be done as usual. last week was our midterm break that brought forward. it supposed to be in august gather with raya holiday.for the first time when being inform about 1 week holiday whereby our midterm break has bring forward because of the outbreak of H1N1, i am not so excited of it. there will be pro and cons. sad part is, raya holiday will be shorten. as for me that already bought my ticket flight going back to Sarawak, there might be chances for me either to change my ticket where it needs money for sure not simply can change it as i like or just escape or in better words, i have to miss my class with consideration from my lecturer. are they would let me to do so??hoho..hopefuly my lecturer will be considered with our situation for those came from sabah sarawak. we bought the ticket earlier not because there will be no ticket at all for us but it is all about money. the fee of the ticket will getting expensive and expensive from time to time especially if buying the ticket so late. it will be costly compare buying it earlier. i hope everyone will understand us.

that is about my ticket. time flies very fast. it's august already. i got so many task to finish especially management and safety of toxic substance subject. i don't know either i manage to finish everything in time. it seems so hard for me to do assignment for that subject because it is subject of environmental course. however, i will try my best and put as much effort i could to do it. whatever it is, it is my responsible as a student to do it. there is no excuse. i hope this semester will goes smoothly as i wanted it to be. hopefully. i hope i can do my best for every subject..how i wish. a month passed by already and i need to work hard in revising every topics that has been taught. it is my fault as well not to be systematically and tend to waste my time with so many unimportant things..it is time to move on. all the best for myself in every single thing i do..never give up dd!!!that's all for now and need to continue my work..till then..

p/s: have a nice day ahead everyone ;)

Assalamualaikum..

It is some sort of feeling of me towards something,someone..i guess i should act in that way but i do not know if i am wrong.i just can be too nice once someone humiliate me.when it comes to humiliation,i really2 hard to accept it. everyone need to be respect rite.let say if you have feeling of being dislike, just go away..or else, talk nicely.i can accept it and not in such way.it is too bad when you pretend to be good at first and there it goes.seeking for others mistake even though it is you, the one who make mistake.just confess it OK.i still can accept it if you are being honest to me. i do trust you before even not 100% but it will be more nicely if you tell the truth and don't treat me like i don't have any feeling.i am an human being, which has feeling, has to be respect not can simply treat like i don't. i believe what goes around comes around. and there it goes.suddenly you change back like before, which is trying to treat me nicely like before. as i am, i just can't be like before. few question from you answered with one answer. then you said, i have changed. i try not to hurt you by saying you are the one that cause me to change. so don't blame me. however, i still respect you and just keep it to myself. you said that i sound not happy when you are talking to me. then i just said it's not like that. everything seems to be the same way. i am just the same person that you know. just like before. no changes. if i do change, i become someone better as everyone should be. i hope you noticed what is actually you are doing. come whenever you wanted to. go whenever you wanted to. i guess lyrics in song entitle COBA by Faizal Tahir really suit this condition. please go away from me if you actually don't want to.please go away from me if you just want to fulfill you free time.please go away from me if you just bored and need to be accompany.it is just wasting my time and tiring. i do forgive what you have done, however, it might take time to forgive it. please go away from me if you just could hurt me more and more.i beg you to go away and let me to be happy with my life. i just asked for one and not more. so please, for the sake of both of us. thanks anyway for keeping me happy and being so concern to me. i never hate you like i told you. merely, i just can't accept when you are lying. may stop writing now. above all, you are just unpredictable.

p/s: it is not wrong to be selfish in good way. for the sake of everyone.. ;)

Assalamualaikum..

i took so long to write a post for my blog..i can see that my last entry for this blog was few months ago..i am bit lazy lately to update my blog..however, it does not mean that i stop myself from blogging..i still love blogging..there are so many things to tell but hardly to put it into words..how my English becomes so bad lately..i knew little vocabulary..i make decision to practice writing more and more in English so that i get use in using English language..it is not that i don't want to speak in Malay or i am not proud being Malaysian..deep down inside, i am so proud and feel very lucky to be Malaysian..Malaysia was a nice country, where we can live in it peacefully but still have be careful on certain things or as precaution for anything that might happen in the future.how grateful i am to be part of Malaysia.

i was in semester seventh already which mean i got another 1 semester to finish my study.frankly speaking, i am so excited to finish my study and enter working field. i know it will become even harder and harder. nothing comes easily in this world..everything needs effort to achieve it. me, myself is trying my very best to become extra ambitious and more determination to achieve my aims in whatever i did in my journey of life..for sure there will be a lot of things i wanted to be, i wanted to have, i wanted achieve and so on..i pray hardly everything going to be fine and goes smoothly (including putting lot of efforts on it and not only pray for it to happen like a magic without any effort, that's for sure ;))..

enough talking bout my desire in life, now move to gradually episode or chapter of my life. i already move to new house. i am so happy being here. new environment which encourage me to start new chapter of life. past is past and will let it as history. what is more important now, it is time to move on and to not to turn back once i already made my decision. i believe that in order to be success, we need to sacrifice something. some might think it sounds so selfish but its a reality. like it or not, we have to accept it. some might hard to accept this real fact of life especially those with close-minded. they will start to blame others and will not think at the bright side. how terrible it is to have such person with close-minded. they like to point others rather than letting it as part of life should be. i do not want to blame others on what had happen in my life. things happen might have reason behind. or else there might be some goodness ahead to come. plus we should let is as lesson so that it will not happen again and again.as we grow older, life will become more complicated.however, we still manage to make it even easier and simpler. it is depend on us on how we are going to get through it. we will be happier if we able to make it easily rather than keep on thinking the hard part of it.

life goes like it should be..every moment has been experienced.mix up of feelings.happiness.sadness.it brought me up and become matured eventually. especially way of thinking.it let me to have better way in figuring out.i become even more rational in any action i should make. i felt so thankful to be like who am i at this moment. i felt so grateful to have lovely and caring parents, they are such wonderful parents. my siblings that will always being around to cheer me up even though we might have some fighting among ourselves. but it was fun after all. not to forget, i also have friends that always appreciate friendship that we have. being together in every way. i do really love everyone and appreciate everything that i have. alhamdullillah and thanks to Allah swt for giving me chance to keep alive, being around with everyone that i love and also to have wonderful life.

p/s:life must go on even though we might feel weak whenever we faced with difficulties. as we gone through it, we might feel even better and much happier in experienced it. 

air mata ku menitis lepas dgr suara ayah dan ibu ku..

Assalamualaikum...

apa kabar sumer???adaka org baca blog ak mslhnya..haha..xpa2..ada ak kesah...mst la TIDAK...see...awal2 ak ah mengarut...ak ok ke x ni hah???cepat2...selamatkan ak sblm jd lg severe...ngehngeh...ak tlh berjln2 selama 4 jam tanpa henti...power x??ini adalah di sebabkan mslh2 jiwa yg kacau...kacau la sgt..walhal ak ja yg ada hobi suka berjalan..jln la kemana2...ak rindu dgn semua perkara..regarding entry seblum ni..tu adala antra perkara2 yg d rindui...
ak byk berfikir agknya skrg nii..berfikir perkara yg bkn ilmiah..sila jgn prejudis...perkara2 itu bkn yg 18SG ok...typical thing..i keep on arguing within myself...too personal to share here...sem ni sbnrnya sem yg paling mencabar bg ak..sbbnya ak tlh d gnggu gugat dgn sorg manusia yg berhati binatang..kamu sgt kejam ok..manusia paling jht ak penah jmpa..serius ak ckp..dh tu ak xpenah kena mcm ni..ak terlalu sakit hati smpaikan ak leh keluarkan 1 statement,'ak menyesal kenal dgn anda....'xalang2..if time turned back..,sungguh ak xnk kenal dgn anda..ak menyesal sungguh2 ni...this is the first time i had been regret knowing person like u...ak lyn ko baik je dan slalu cuba tolong ko klu ko ada mslh..tp camni ko kenakan ak...ok2..dah2..klu ingt bnda ni ak akan emotionally unstable...ak xnk emo2..ak mahu hepi2 saja...swithch..mode ceria...hehe...i miss something,someone damn so much..giler2 rindu ni...tp harus la cool saja...okk..cooollll...silence of doesnt mean i forgot u oredi..i do keep on thinking of u...percaya la..td ak tgk video lagu 'thinking of u'..mata ak leh bergenang...see...i did 'thinking of u'''walau kamu slalu lupakan sy...eh2..tetiba guna sy plak...ngarut sungguh ak ni..jgn slh kan ak klu ak merepek..jgn slhkan ak klu ak mengarut..sbb manusia2 d sekeliling ak yg induce ak...tp jgn slh kan mereka..xtau la slh sape..haha..kelakar..k la..harus berhenti repekan dan karutan and of coz kesengalan...SENGALNESS!!!!

p/s: ak mau terbang tggi smpi LIBYA,blh ka???

finally..its final exam week already...and i still not yet ready enough to take it...gosh..one week of study week is fulfill  with sort of relaxing and some useless activity...and someone said this to me,'dd, wake up2!!!!!don't play around and please and please do your revision...'oho...i felt very sorry to myself especially for not using time given with supposed to be done..i am sorry bu..your daughter is being so naughty here and there..wasting her precious time..sorry again to my ibu...i just not being a good daughter enough to you...i am not doing my revision seriuosly this time...i am sory again and again... as you knew, your daughter had some problem here...and thanks as well to my ayah for always understand your daughter and support me all the way..what ever i wanted to do, you will always support me..you'll always said, just do what ever you want to do, as long as you are happy but, but..there is still but...there is a limit ok..this is one of that my ayah and ibu always,'apa saja yg ingin di buat,fikirla sedalamnya..make sure jagala maruah keluarga k...'and i always remerber it..oh ayah and ibu, i felt so thannkful to have both of you as my parents...and here...i as your daughter just want to say..i love both of you so much..nothing gonna change it..my love towards both of you..its just...both of you are everything to me..i am nobody without both of you..may stop now..have to continue my reading...again and again..SAYA SAYANG AYAH DAN IBU SANGAT2....X_x

p/s: all the best for my final...

aku rindu yang amat sama:

1. rumah tmpt ku membesar
2. bilik ku yang indah
3. ibu ku yang penyayang
   
4. ayahku yang super understanding
5. abg ku yang best
6. adik2 ku yg ntah apa2 (rindu mau tdo sama mereke daa)
   
7. lg2 aku jg rindu sama masakan ibu ku yg tiada tandingannya ;)
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9. seterusnya aku rindu yg amat....
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11. tiada kaitan dgn hometown...
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13. mr finger yg slalu bebel2 aku but i likeee ;)
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15. sungguh aku rindu semua di atas....
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p/s:konsentrasi ku terganggu daa...sbb aku terlalu rindu....dah2..,harus smbung study...oh tidakkk..final dah menghampiri...wish2...wish me all da best for my final..;)